In the Beginning, O God, have You made heaven and earth.
In Your Word,
In Your Son,
In Your Power,
In Your Wisdom,
In Your Truth.
Wonderously You spoke and wonderously made.
Who shall comprehend? Who declare it?
What is it that gleams through me?
What strikes my heart without hurt?
What makes me shudder and glow, impassioned?
This force is so unlike me, so I shudder.
But this force is what I was made to be like, so I ignite.
From the Confessions of St. Augustine
May 2, 2010
the "check engine" light came on in our van last week. today it came on in our car. it was only a matter of time for both. we've planned to run both vehicles into the ground, and replace them when absolutely necessary (how we're going to replace them is another question).
it occurred to me that my spiritual "check engine" light has been on for a while, and i've been ignoring it. my "vehicle" was past the point of needing repair some time ago. instead of repairing it i've learned how to coast in neutral. to keep coasting one needs a downward slope, and i've been on it. there is no destination, i've been aimlessly traveling wherever the slope takes me.
but i wasn't created to coast.
i am wondrously made, and bound for glory.
my life from start to finish is to be traveled on Victory Rd.
pray for me as i go back to the Beginning, to my first love.
as i seek the One who made heaven and earth, and ask him to make me.
as i ask Jesus to strike my heart! to cause me to be impassioned and ignited, and to gleam through me again.