I cried like my world was falling apart.
It didn't help that I was 4+ months pregnant with Emilie.
Poor Michael.
He had no idea what to do with me.
I blinked and Noah was 1.
And on the eve of his first birthday I knew, knew this time, it's sacred.
Sacred-
Highly valued and important: deserving great respect
Devoted exclusively to one service or purpose
Dedicated or set apart for the service of worship
What we parents do is sacred.
It's highly valuable, AND it is "set apart for the service of worship."
Last week, I blinked and Noah was 16.
Seriously, blinked and *snap,* 16!
On his birthday I was reading Proverbs 2, reading in the first few verses about gaining wisdom and instruction, understanding words of insight, learning discretion, and then verse 8 caught my attention-
"Listen, my son, to your father's instruction, and do not forsake your mother's teaching."
And as I read I thought about this sacred, and that Michael and I are to instruct and teach our children to be wise, to understand words of insight, to use discretion; that that is our "service of worship" to the Lord our God.
Next to my marriage, I don't think anything else I do (Michael and I do) this side of Heaven matters more.
Other things use to matter more, though. A lot of other things.
The one reoccurring thing was this thought that I needed to be somebody,
The honest truth is that more times than I care to count I've put my kids (my marriage, too) on the back-burner so that I could pursue those things, so that I could think and feel for a nanosecond that I had value.
But God.
Thankfully, He is my parent, who instructs and teaches me... and oh, do I need parenting!
And just like our kids need us to steer them in the right direction, I desperately need my Father to redirect me to wisdom, insight, and discretion, too.
Because the Lord God loves me so wildly, He brings me back to where my desire truly is-
here in my home,
to the "right before my eyes,"
so that I won't blink and miss this,
His sacred.
(Video originally posted Mother's Day, 2009)
"Sacred" by Caedmon's Call
this house is a good mess
it’s the proof of life
no way would I trade jobs
but it don’t pay overtime
I’ll get to the laundry
I don’t know when
I’m saying a prayer tonight
cause tomorrow it starts again
could it be that everything is sacred?
and all this time
everything I’ve dreamed of
has been right before my eyes
the children are sleeping
but they’re running through my mind
the sun makes them happy
and the music makes them unwind
my cup runneth over
and I worry about the stain
teach me to run to You
like they run to me for every little thing
when I forget to drink from you
I can feel the banks harden
Lord, make me like a stream
to feed the garden
wake up, little sleeper
the Lord, God Almighty
made your Mama keeper
so rise and shine,rise and shine
rise and shine cause
everything is sacred
and all this time
everything I’ve dreamed of
has been right before my eyes
Happy Mothers Day!
Live in Peace,
4 comments:
loved this so much!!!! i am a little teary eyed! so true that we have these kiddos for just a short time...and if we have done things right they like us the last few years in our home lol...hope your boy had a great birthday! thanks for the encouragement today!!
This spoke so deeply to my soul!! I have for so long thought I needed to be something beyond a mother, but God has slowly been telling me that is enough. That is the most. That is the hardest. That is the best. Thank you for always encouraging and using your life an example to Him!
Great post :) Happy belated birthday to Noah and happy belated Mother's Day. Have a great rest of the week :)
~Valerie
I just resigned from my part time teaching job to follow my heart home...and it feels like such a loss on the outside to the outsiders but so deeply personal and perfect for me...
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